About Me

Here is my face:
 

Other places you can find me:

And here is a silly survey I filled out:

  • 1: Full name: Emily Ann Frigge
  • 2: Birthsign: Gemini
  • 3: 3 Fears: Storms, Mr. Rodgers, Playing Amnesia
  • 4: 3 things I love: Tumblr and all of my followers, my dog, chocolate
  • 5: 4 turns on: Uh I’m somewhat asexual… so I don’t really have any turn ons…
  • 6: 4 turns off: Look above
  • 7: My best friend: Amanda and Dezi. 
  • Amanda and I have been best friends for 7 or 8 years now. I act like a retard and she looks at me like I’m a retard. That summarizes our entire relationship. 
    Dezi and I have been friends for… like 9 years? I met her when she was in 2nd grade so I’ve known her almost her entire life XD. Whenever we hang out we sit on the internet, or watch TV together.
  • 8: Sexual orientation: Straight but borderline Asexual.
  • 9: My best first date: Never had one
  • 10: How tall am I: 5’ 5” 
  • 11: What do I miss: High school. I actually went to an excellent high school where pretty much everyone tollerated each other, I had wonderful friends, and I got to have fun almost every day. 
  • 12: What time was I born: I think I was born around 6pm
  • 13: Favourite color: Green, the color of nature and life.
  • 14: Do I have a crush: Maybe…
  • 15: Favourite quote: “People are stupid” or “You never know”
  • 16: Favourite place: Here
  • 17: Favourite food: Steak
  • 18: Do I use sarcasm: Noooo… I would NEVER do that.
  • 19: What am I listening to right now: The humming of my refrigerator.
  • 20: First thing I notice in new person: Their body language.
  • 21: Shoe size: 8
  • 22: Eye color: Hazel
  • 23: Hair color: Brown
  • 24: Favourite style of clothing: Punk/Goth. But for the most part I just wear jeans and T-shirts
  • 25: Ever done a prank call? Probably
  • 26: What colour of underwear I’m wearing now? I’m wearing grey plaid boxers. 
  • 27: Meaning behind my URL: My name is Amaris and I’m a wolf. Pretty self explanitory
  • 28: Favourite movie: Black Beauty~
  • 29: Favourite song: At the moment… Horror of Our Love - Ludo
  • 30: Favourite band: Panic! At the Disco
  • 31: How I feel right now: Neutral/Happy-ish. (How I feel most of the time)
  • 32: Someone I love: My mom :P
  • 33: My current relationship status: Single…
  • 34: My relationship with my parents: Good. I never really tell them anything personal which is why our relationship is so good XD
  • 35: Favourite holiday: HALLOWEEN!!!
  • 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: My lobes are pierced and then I have 3 cartilage piercings on my left ear.
  • 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: None really. MAYBE a wolf tattoo one day…
  • 38: The reason I joined Tumblr:  I don’t even remember. I just stumbled upon it one day. Kinda didn’t do to much at first, but then shit happened, I got a bunch of followers and now I’m on here almost non stop.
  • 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? Since I don’t have an Ex I’m gunna say no…
  • 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Me and my friends will say good night to each other if we’re going to bed at the end of the conversation otherwise no… my friends know better than to wake me up in the morning.
  • 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? No…
  • 42: When did I last hold hands? When I was in a car being driven by one of my best friends boyfriends. And pretty much he sucked at driving stick and we both thought we were gunna die so we held each other’s hands in a death grip.
  • 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Depends. 10-40minutes depending on when I get up. The later I get up, the less time it takes
  • 44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope.
  • 45: Where am I right now? In my kitchen. 
  • 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? No idea…
  • 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUD. 
  • 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Yep.
  • 49: Am I excited for anything? Summer~ Hopefully going on a road trip and visiting a wolf sanctuary with Amanda :3
  • 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? No
  • 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Never. I find it senseless to hide how I’m feeling. Wearing a fake smile only prolongs depression and makes it permanent. Act how you feel, don’t keep it inside.
  • 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Yesterday
  • 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I wouldn’t care… because the last person to kiss me stuck his tongue down my throat with no warning and I hates that mother fucker.
  • 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? No
  • 55: What is something I disliked about today? I had to get up before noon. Ew.
  • 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? ALEXANDER SKARSGARD!! XD
  • 57: What do I think about most? Uh… tumblr?
  • 58: What’s my strangest talent? No clue
  • 59: Do I have any strange phobias? Mr. Rodgers…
  • 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind it.
  • 61: What was the last lie I told? This one: I’m not eating Oreos right now.
  • 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone. its easier
  • 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I believe in the possibility of both. But I’m heavily leaning towards a yes on the ghosts. 
  • 64: Do I believe in magic? Yep.
  • 65: Do I believe in luck? Hell yeah, mine is disturbingly good.
  • 66: What’s the weather like right now? Sunny and 41°
  • 67: What was the last book I’ve read? Stephen King: Salem’s Lot
  • 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Yes XD
  • 69: Do I have any nicknames? Ama, Beatrice, Wolfie
  • 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
  • 71: Do I spend money or save it? Both?
  • 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Yeah
  • 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Yep tiny pink flower
  • 74: Favourite animal? Wolf
  • 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Tumblring
  • 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? What do I care?
  • 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Turn Me On
  • 78: How can you win my heart? Just love me, unconditionally for who I am. Also if you’re a serial killer or a psychopath you’re pretty much golden. ( I know I have problems shut up )
  • 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? Just a huge picture of a wolf
  • 80: What is my favorite word? FUCK
  • 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: idk I cant pick just 5
  • 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Unity, understanding, and tollerance is the key to progress.
  • 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of.
  • 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Shapeshifting
  • 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Where will your friends be in 5 years?
  • 86: What is my current desktop picture? A wolf
  • 87: Had sex? No
  • 88: Bought condoms? No
  • 89: Gotten pregnant? No
  • 90: Failed a class? Almost
  • 91: Kissed a boy? He kissed me
  • 92: Kissed a girl? No
  • 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? No
  • 94: Had job? Yep 4 actually
  • 95: Left the house without my wallet? All the time
  • 96: Bullied someone on the internet? No
  • 97: Had sex in public? No XD
  • 98: Played on a sports team? Yep
  • 99: Smoked weed? No
  • 100: Did drugs? No
  • 101: Smoked cigarettes? No
  • 102: Drank alcohol? Yes, no effect
  • 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Not remotely
  • 104: Been overweight? Yeah
  • 105: Been underweight? For a brief period when I was young
  • 106: Been to a wedding? Yeah… booooring
  • 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yeah… everyday
  • 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yep
  • 109: Been outside my home country? Nope
  • 110: Gotten my heart broken? Sorta?
  • 111: Been to a professional sports game? Yeah… boring
  • 112: Broken a bone? Nope
  • 113: Cut myself? On accident
  • 114: Been to prom? NOPE XD
  • 115: Been in airplane? Yep
  • 116: Fly by helicopter? Maybe soon. I have a permit to fly with flight for life if I ever want to.
  • 117: What concerts have I been to? Owl City when they were new, and Panic! at the Disco
  • 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? No
  • 119: Learned another language? Not really
  • 120: Wore make up? That was a disaster
  • 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? No XD
  • 122: Had oral sex? No
  • 123: Dyed my hair? no
  • 124: Voted in a presidential election? no
  • 125: Rode in an ambulance? YESSSSS Because I was on the EMT crew! XD I’ve also driven both of our ambulances XP
  • 126: Had a surgery? No
  • 127: Met someone famous? No
  • 128: Stalked someone on a social network? Who hasn’t?
  • 129: Peed outside? no
  • 130: Been fishing? yes
  • 131: Helped with charity? yeah
  • 132: Been rejected by a crush? No, i don’t open myself up for rejection. I hardly allow myself to feel anyways :P
  • 133: Broken a mirror? Yep
  • 134: What do I want for birthday? A tredmill
  • 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? Zero
  • 136: Was I named after anyone? No
  • 137: Do I like my handwriting? Its fine
  • 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? A little stuffed wolf
  • 139: Favourite Tv Show? BBC Sherlock, X-Files, Fringe, Being Human, Fact of Faked, Destination Truth.
  • 140: Where do I want to live when older? Somewhere warm
  • 141: Play any musical instrument? Violin and Trumpet
  • 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? I have a scar on my elbow from epicly falling off my bike.
  • 143: Favourite pizza toping? BACON AND ONION
  • 144: Am I afraid of the dark? No
  • 145: Am I afraid of heights? Not really
  • 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? No, I never get caught~
  • 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Yeah
  • 148: What I’m really bad at: Emotions
  • 149: What my greatest achievments are: My EMT License and my Graphic Design Degree
  • 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: I don’t know…
  • 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: No idea.
  • 152: What do I like about myself: That I’m open to people and accept them as they are.
  • 153: My closest Tumblr friend: Geezzlouise
  • 154: Something I fantasise about: Being a wolf.
Basic Facts:
I am aromatic, asexual, I have ADD, a touch of bipolar disorder (which means I have strong manic(freaking the fuck out) and depressive moods every now and then. Not that I’ll love you one second and hate you the next, do your research), along with some sociopathic moments, and over all I don’t really feel emotions all that much. 
Despite all this I can still function fairly well in society and for the most part it doesn’t cause myself or others distress which means that technically none of it is a disorder, just part of who and what I am.
I am an EMT at the basic level, I have an associates degree in Graphic Design, I’m working toward getting a degree in Web Design as well, along with possibly a nursing degree.
I go to school, work at pizza hut, spend time with friends, and whatever is left over(which is a lot) I spend on here with all of you.
I dearly love all of my followers. I suffer pretty strong depression when I’m left alone. For the first 3/4 of my life I was completely alone. Everyone at school made fun of me, and at home my older brothers would tease and pick on me constantly while my mother and father just tried to ignore it entirely. Because of that I’ve never really had a strong sense of “family.” In high school though I finally met the most wonderful group of friends, and after 4 years of being with them… for the first time in my life I wasn’t achingly sad. I was almost happy. Now that time is over though, so I spend my time on here to ward off my depression by surrounding myself with loving and caring people, and by doing my best to return some of that love and care.
My friends are the most important thing in my life. They’re what keep me from going insane.


Why I hate being the third wheel


Now obviously no one would like being a third wheel, I mean its not fun, but here’s why I hate it.

Being asexual, and never really romantically inclined can really suck ass sometimes. Because even though you don’t feel like being romantic you still have social needs, plus with every kind of media pounding the idealization of romanic love into your head at every given opportunity it just feels like there’s this gaping hole in your life that you’ll never be able to fill. To me it feels like I’m just broken and useless. So being around people who are in a relationship just hurts. Its like being forced to constantly look at something you’ll never have and knowing that no matter how important your friends are too you, you will ALWAYS only be a second priority at best. I can’t even describe how much it hurts to know that you will NEVER be that special someone to anyone, because you just can’t. To know you’ll never have that one important person who feels the same about you. To know that at the end of the day you are alone, and you always will be. To know that your friends will all grow up one day, get married, have families, priorities far more important than you, and you will be left alone, because you never had anyone and you never will have anyone. I’ve seen it happen and I’m watching it happen right now. Its more painful than anything I know in the entire world.

Just writing about this is dredging up all my past pain and depression. This is normally a subject I try and avoid, but I really feel that its important that people know. This has caused me to entirely cut people out of my life and never talk to them again so… yeah.

I had shit experiences with this in high school when I wanted to go hang out with my friends and they brought their boyfriends/girlfriends. And then next thing you know they’re making out and I just have to sit there like “fuck.” Because to me it just feels like “Hey Emily look, I know I love you but uh… I love them more, oh and by the way you’ll never have this kind of close relationship, enjoy being forever alone.” And I would just have to sit there in awkward silence… 

The worst though were two “friends” that I had in college. Beginning of college I was happier and more optimistic than I ever was in my entire life, and I would hang out with my friends constantly. There was me, another girl, and a guy. Hanging out with them was all I would do to the point were I almost never got my homework done when I should have (i know… what a shocker).

But anyway, so the guy and the girl hit it off, but neither of them had a car. So basically I became their designated driver. They would always beg that all three of us would hang out and I would reluctantly agree. This degraded to the point where one night they actually had sex while I was sleeping in the same room. Well in the end I lost my patients, got pissed, told both of them how much I hated them and just fucking left. I can’t even tell you how many times I would just walk out and leave those two alone, it makes me sick even thinking about it.

After that the guy actually stopped talking to the girl too and apologized to me. So I guess he valued our friendship more than sex which was really pretty awww. Buuut he’s still an ass. We sorta keep in contact still, but we aren’t as close as we used to be.

So yeah… I hate being a third wheel. More than anything. Soooo if you want me to leave you and never come back that’s how to do it.



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