So… my life right now:

I have a friend staying at my house since she was recently assulted by her psychotic ex-roommate. No idea how long she’ll be here. But she needs a place to stay and our family can give her one so there’s no way I can say no.

I failed one of my key web design classes and I’ll have to take it over next spring. So pretty much my parents are going to fucking kill me if they find out. Cuz I was only taking 2 classes, and I failed one of them. Honestly I just suck at web design and I hate the shit out of it. I fucking hate css and html coding, fuck that shit.

I hardly get any hours at work so I’m poor as fuck. And my mom keeps bitching me out to get another job, which isn’t really any kind of feasible thing that I can do since I already have 2 jobs and getting a 3rd would be fucking ridiculous. 

Anndd overall I just have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life anymore. So… yeah, more than anything I just want to clear up the uncertainty. I’m not sure if I want to press forward with the web design thing and get it over with, and just hope that I like it after learning it better, take more EMT courses and use that as my career, become an ER nurse, or maybe something else all together. I just don’t know. I wish I could have the freedom to explore other jobs, like something outdoors or working with animals, but my parents just have me locked into graphic design now… and there’s pretty much no way I can get out… *frustrated groan*

So if I seem like I just disappear, take a long time to reply, or just act weird this summer… well that’s why.

I’m sorry :C